HAPPY MAMA

Today I got to sew, and it was so wonderful. While Zeke was taking a nap, I pulled out an important project that I have been putting off and went to town. It was one of those short naps, so I really only wet my toes a little, but Mr. C also watched the kids so I could continue a little longer. Something I've come to accept is that, as a toddler, Bea could play with her dad for hours if I needed to get something done, but Zeke is just my little clinger. I realize now how much I took for granted my time before he was born. I don't even mean that negatively, it's more of a personal time-management thing with me. You know that feeling where there is so much to do, and so much you want to do, that you just end up doing nothing? I feel like this so much sometimes, and it gets really frustrating. I have to take responsibility for the part of me that doesn't always use the opportunities I have to do what I want to do.

I have about 50 unfinished sewing projects in my closet that stare at me every time I open the door. I don't even know why and what I bought the fabric for anymore. To be real, I'm already 2 days behind on my laundry folding (no harm in just taking what you need right out of the basket), so taking time away from stuff like that just seems overwhelming. But I feel sad that I haven't made Zeke near the amount of clothes I've bought fabric for, and Bea is starting to outgrow the cute, "little girl" dress age for sewing.

My designated "boy" fabrics

So here I propose my goal (ugh, I hate that word, along with new years resolution- I feel like a cornball even writing about it) for this year. I want to take time for myself when it's available, and even ask for the time when I need it. My family is so important to me, and earning a living is too, but I can't feel sorry for myself if I don't take opportunities and initiative for my personal interests outside of those things.

And we all know that happy mommies make the world so much better!

2014

I had every intention to start this blog off right, with frequent updates and such, but alas, actual life just got crazy. This has been one of the most challenging weeks I've had in a long time. Bea had Scarlet Fever (so scary!) and Zeke decided to get playful from around 3-6 am every morning, so sleep was just not happening in this casa.

But I'm back! And ready to blog my heart out, but not without looking back at my favorite moments from 2014 first. So much has happened and our family has gone through so many changes over the past year. Zeke was only 4 months old when 2014 began, and seeing him grow and change has been really fun for the whole family. I remember shortly after he was born obsessively comparing everything between him and Bea, mostly just because I was worried something was wrong with him, and my midwife kept telling me "he's just a different person!" She is so right. He is so very different from Bea. They are both incredibly wonderful in their own ways, and learning about this new little person is what makes parenting so rewarding.

At the end of the Summer, Zeke had his first birthday and Bea turned six. Bea started Kindergarten, began reading, and has completely amazed us with how fast her skills are coming along. She also lost her first (and second) tooth!

During 2014, Bea became obsessed with Ghostbusters. I can't say I'm surprised, as her daddy is a pretty big fan himself. He began introducing her to the movies and cartoon series, and it was only natural that she would decide to be a Ghostbuster for Halloween, a pink Ghostbuster to be exact. But it didn't stop there. No, no it did not. In fact, the entire family decided to join in on the Ghostbusters theme.

And so comes the last milestone of the year, a daunting day for any twenty-something. I turned 30 in November. It turned out to be just like any other ordinary day. Well, besides the fact that my amazing family threw me a party with a bundt cake (yeah that's a thing now, apparently). But my point being, there's this huge stigma against turning 30, or 40 or 50 or whatever, but really, when you already have 2 kids, it's like no big thang.....(until I stop getting carded, then it might be a thing).

We wrapped up the year by hosting Christmas Eve at our house. This was the first time we've ever done something like this, besides the occasional family BBQ, and I'm happy to say it went really well! It was nice to not have to rush home to get everything ready for Christmas morning. After everyone left, Mr. C and I finished up some gift wrapping, sent our elf, Rosie Peppermint, on his way, and snuggled up to some Hulu before the big day arrived. I ended up making a ton of gifts this year (with the usual rush to get them all finished in time), which were all a big hit with the kids, and I'll blog about them later.

A NEW BLOG FOR A NEW YEAR

A first blog, for me. Something I've wanted to do for many years now. I've given a lot of thought as to what I would want to write about if I were to ever start a blog, and as I see my children growing up, at what seems to be an impossibly fast rate, I've decided to just get to it already. So, here is my blog about...everything.