HAPPY MAMA

Today I got to sew, and it was so wonderful. While Zeke was taking a nap, I pulled out an important project that I have been putting off and went to town. It was one of those short naps, so I really only wet my toes a little, but Mr. C also watched the kids so I could continue a little longer. Something I've come to accept is that, as a toddler, Bea could play with her dad for hours if I needed to get something done, but Zeke is just my little clinger. I realize now how much I took for granted my time before he was born. I don't even mean that negatively, it's more of a personal time-management thing with me. You know that feeling where there is so much to do, and so much you want to do, that you just end up doing nothing? I feel like this so much sometimes, and it gets really frustrating. I have to take responsibility for the part of me that doesn't always use the opportunities I have to do what I want to do.

I have about 50 unfinished sewing projects in my closet that stare at me every time I open the door. I don't even know why and what I bought the fabric for anymore. To be real, I'm already 2 days behind on my laundry folding (no harm in just taking what you need right out of the basket), so taking time away from stuff like that just seems overwhelming. But I feel sad that I haven't made Zeke near the amount of clothes I've bought fabric for, and Bea is starting to outgrow the cute, "little girl" dress age for sewing.

My designated "boy" fabrics

So here I propose my goal (ugh, I hate that word, along with new years resolution- I feel like a cornball even writing about it) for this year. I want to take time for myself when it's available, and even ask for the time when I need it. My family is so important to me, and earning a living is too, but I can't feel sorry for myself if I don't take opportunities and initiative for my personal interests outside of those things.

And we all know that happy mommies make the world so much better!